Life Giving Light

Art and I are beginning to believe that Keira is part monkey, because she is always trying to do new things with her feet. She uses them more than her hands. She has been a kicker since the day she was conceived and has never stopped since. Her feet are always moving! Recently, she learned how to make herself bounce in the bouncer by kicking one foot in the air over and over. Today she learned how to kick the toys on her bouncer. Then this afternoon, she was playing on her rainforest gym and lifted her feet all the way over her head to kick her jingly toy.

She is crazy with those feet! You would never guess she had any problem with her spinal cord! I found out her MRI is scheduled for Tuesday, March 17th at noon at Children's Hospital. I knew they would have to sedate her for the scan since babies can't hold still long enough to complete it, but I didn't connect that to the fact that she wouldn't be able to eat for 8 hours before hand just like anyone else. They said all she can have is pedialite 4 hours before her appointment. I am NOT looking forward to making her go that long without eating, especially since we are used to feeding her the moment she indicates she is hungry. My mom and Art told me I will probably be more traumatized by it than her, but I'm STILL not happy about it.

Let's see, besides that... Art has had a fever for the past 2 days. I took him to the doctor today and they told him he has an ear infection which is strange because he didn't have any complaints about his ear. As for me, I am fairly healthy physically, but feeling a little unstable mentally. Before I had the baby, I knew that working and having a baby would mean that I had to use "the best of me" at work and the baby and Art would get "the rest of me" but now that it is actually happening, it is much harder to deal with than I thought. Every day I feel like I am failing at SOMETHING. I am having the hardest time just getting dinner on the table every day and am very overwhelmed at the thought of accomplishing more than that. And with all the stress I have in my life right now, I am having a really hard time concentrating at work resulting in a lot of stupid little mistakes- which is frustrating because I am a dang good secretary and my bosses expect perfection from me at all times. Things might be different if my husband and I were on a normal schedule where we were both home in the evenings and together on weekends, but in our current situation I find myself alone most of the time- and I can't do everything alone. I talked to my boss last month about switching to part time, but for a myriad of reasons I don't believe they are going to go for it and the thought of trying to find another job right now that would pay me what I'm making now just compound my stress all the more.

I'm so glad I have an impeccably happy baby or else I would be a very bitter and depressed person. I'm sure God knew that when he sent me her. Keira Evelyn means dark-haired, life-giving light- which describes her in perfection.