Tough Decisions

After careful consideration, Art and I have finally come to the decision to find our poor Bunny a new home. We estimated that our guilt for getting rid of him would be less than the guilt of never paying attention to him. I hope we find this to be true. Despite our love of Bunny, he just isn't suited to be in the presence of small children and that's all we'll have in our home during his bunny life span.

A couple weeks ago, my friend Robyn told me a story about how she had two kittens that needed a home and she decided to give them to her dad but she couldn't go through with it and was distraught until she realized it was because she was on her period. I laughed at her and said I surely wouldn't make the same mistake if/when I decided to find Bunny a home. Nonetheless, I have someone coming to pick him up tomorrow and I am on my period- feeling rather remorseful and second guessing my decision- trying not to cry about it. Silly me.

It's been a hard day for sure. In addition to finding Bunny's new owner today, I have arrived at the decision that I need to find a new job... AGAIN. When I started my job at Realty Concepts, I was told that after 90 days probation, my boss would pay me $100 per close and set me up as an employee instead of an independent contractor. The latter is the only reason I accepted this job. Knowing that I plan to have more children, I need to be able to get disability payments when I go on leave if I expect to survive. My boss has always been very pleased with my work and often tells me so, however, after my probation was over I brought it to her attention and she said that she isn't going to pay me $100 per close until I can do everything 100% on my own. Firstly, I can't do everything on my own- I'm not the agent. Secondly, I only work 4 hours a day. I can't do everything in only 4 hours. She pretty much went back on her word, then set an impossible standard to meet before she would keep it. As for making me an employee, she said she would start on it as soon as she got her computer set up. It has been set up for a couple weeks now so I asked her about it today and now she says she isn't going to make me an employee either. I am just seriously tired of being taken advantage of. Both the promises she made were broken and she expects perfect work and maximum effort for next to no pay.

The past year and a half have been extremely difficult for me jobly speaking. A pathetic looking string of short term part-time jobs, paying less than I have made in many years. I just want to work ONE PLACE- a GOOD PLACE- without a PSYCHO boss. Does such a place exist? I dare say it does not. I am not burning my bridge at my job yet, but I am definitely starting my search for a new job. It took about 6 months last time and I don't anticipate it being any easier this time either.

I close with a tear and a prayer for Bunny and me, that these tough decisions might be the best decisions in the end. And next time I try to deal with stuff like this while on my period, please smack me.